(Source: fuckmiilife)
sadly
saldy i miss having some one to care about me ..
one to hold me and make the world seem to not be happening
its too hard to care now
the only one who i want to care
dosent
he loves some one els
though ive never had him call me his
i want him to
but i dont deserve him
im
to
screwed
up
too
wrong
too
obsessive
too
poser
too
self conscious
too
not
“caring “
about
life
he wants some one closer he wants some one that isnt me…..
i want to fall asleep forever
to be in a wonderland of slumber
to control what happens
the hurt and pain i wont ever feel
neither the happy and joyess
i could fall into a sleep of fog
never to know what was going on
to see scary things and people having
butterflies coming out there ears
i might collapse into a dream that never ends
and that will be the end
y out of all the people me?
i would not pick me.
to be
yours
but ..
dont you think im odd?
i have major
problems
but hey if you dont care
thats cool.
your so perfect!
i just dont understand!!!
your to good for me.
why?
why me?
i need a hug badly especially from you
i need a hug because of the things that are bad in my life
even if you dont know what they are
even though you want to know i wont tell you
i need a hug only from you and you only
your strong arms wrapped around me
my body pulled close to yours
it will make me feel so much better
surprise me even though i hate surprises
in the hall on my way to class
its just a hug to you
but it will heal me for the time being
why?
WHy does life have to be filled with hard choices?
why do they always fall upon me?
why cant it just be easy?
why cant i just cry and move on?
why do i have to be split in two?
why do i matter ?
why do people care ?
why cant they just not?
why is everytime i try to make things right i make them wrong?
why
why
why
i hate life…..
the tattoo i want
there there
